1. Get better grades.

2. I will travel

3. I will excercise

4. won’t eat any junk food.

5. I will eat healthier

6. i won’t kiss anyone until were seriously dating

7. I will make a difference in at least someone’s life.

8. I will learn to play at least another instrument.

9. I will love and take in any person that comes my way.

10. I will try to graduate early.

11. I will get my driver’s liscence

12. I will make Abraham happy.

13. i will feel beautiful about myself.

14. I will be happy.

15. I will make new friends.

16. i will find someone as a best friend that’s actually there for me.

I hope i get to resolve a few but if everything is accomplished then that’s good.

i really need to talk to someone who understands me.

i just want to kill myself. i’m not happy here. 

idk my night is just bleh. good night.

im sorry for spamming i just LOVE LADY GAGA <3 and wanna win so badly!

i need to lose weight, and tone my body. Today reminded me of how much work needs to be done. I know that i’m gonna be very stressed, but at the end when i’m done with everything the results will be perfect.

im just afraid for this relationship. afraid of the future. of what might happen. the thought scares me. 

i love him i do, i’m just not ready to share him with the world. with anyone. he’s mine, but sometimes i just feel like im nothing. like im just someone he’ll easily forget. 

cant you see how much i need you?   i adore you.

i’m so pathetic. My mind is spiraling down an endless hole of feelings.

idk. i just want this relationship to be more. to burrow and spread through our hearts, and come into something more. but i guess im not trust worthy when ive over thought my actions in anything i do and he’s there talking to other girls and liking their pictures and stuff, idk i think i’ll never get used to the idea of someone really liking me, i’ll never get used to it until they prove it someway. idk i’m just confused. today just got me thinking , ” What am i doing in this relationship if its something but nothing?” that got me sad. I just want someone who will let me cherish him and not judge me and understand my moral beliefs and values.

i just want someone i can share my deepest emotions and feelings with and actually feel the same way i do. i just feel like no one’s going to ever understand how i feel.

-.- i hate my mom so much. ugh, like wtf is wrong with you? Why don’t you let me go? ugh just because of some stupid disease you have which is not even a disease its just something girls get and you make a fucking big deal. You give everyone what they want in this stupid family except for me. Why do you fucking hate me so much?